03/01/2024
16:32
we need to start packing soon, our flight is on the 7th but we're leaving on the 6th since the airport is far away. i feel like i should be excited but i don't really feel anything about it. it'll be nice to get out of our house, i suppose, but our house is also the only place we don't have so many eyes on us. you can probably tell by now that i'm not really a big fan of being in this body. nobody can see me outside. it's annoying.
our mood has been...bad. putting it lightly. we're all over the place. but we'll be fine soon, we just need to give it a while. i feel like i'm losing myself. i already have in a sense. this isn't me. but i don't have a choice. this isn't the kind of thing where you work on yourself, there's aspects tied to this world and this body that i can never get rid of. at least not here, obviously. when i go back home i won't have to worry about this any more. this'll all just be a nightmare i forget the details of. that'll be nice.